The new World

After two months in the tibetan exile Dharamsala, I can say, I experienced it all...

Starting from the heaviest rainfall I have ever experienced in my life over 2 months, since this is the second most wet place in India. Wet clothes over one month, damp beds and mold everywhere. 
Drama between your colleagues to the point where I resigned from every interaction, contact and confrontation because it was getting ridiculouse. I did my classe and after, I taught privately. 
Sexual abuse and greedy men trying every sleazy trick on me to get my attention, time or body.
I think I experienced the darkest moments, walking under my umbrella singing protection mantras and transformed those dark chunks in the mornings at 6am in the temple on the prostrationboard into light.

After darkness the light was shining brighter then ever...

I became friends with some of the most wonderful people I have ever met.

The tibetan, bhutanese and nepali friends I was granted to spend time here with, were the light in the dark and showed me the deeper meaning of why I had come here.
Buddhists by nature, monks and former monks, all coming from or living in buddhist countries.
When you finally found your people who think the same, feel the same and see the world the same, suddenly everything changes.
You are no Alien anymore. Your actions are being seen, valued and appreciated.
People even act the same and understand you when you speak with a continues Vibe of compassion, love and joy.
There is no expression for the gratitude I am experiencing.
I just want to thank and bow my head to the greater forces who brought us together and deep inside I know; this is just the beginning of something greater then I ever could have imagined....

I love you all and you are always in my heart. You are the reason why I came here, you are the best reflection of the good, that is possible.
We may not always see each other, but we are always there, like the stars.
Together we will make a difference in this world. Thank you for being you, staying true to your values, morals and beliefs.
Now we move along in different directions knowing, that this too is part of the happiness we shared. The other end of the chain. 
We free each other, to find us again and let go again...in eternity...

Before sunrise in the temple

Every Morning at 6:30 I get up and go the temple. I do prostrations, circle the temple with my prayer beads in my hand while praying, then meditation. 250 Prostrations this morning. 130,150, 220 and today 250. Although my stomach and my legs are burning, I kept on increasing the prostrations. Up and down, and up and down, 250 times, while holding different Intentions in my heart. 
May all living beings be free from illusion and suffering self created or caused. May they live a healthy, meaningful life, filled with Joy and love. 
May my words, actions and presence contribute in every way to their happiness.
Circling the temple I pray different buddhist or sanskrit Mantras while using my prayer beads.
In the Picture it´s Palsang, one of my new tibetan monk friends. He showed me how to do the practices, now I go alone. Now I teach him english.

In school I do acting exercises focusing on the conversational part, with my lovely students. As I have seen that many of them are too shy to speak in front of the class, but have potential I had the idea to offer them individual conversation classes of 15minutes each, one at a time. Like this they really get to practice and speak the language, without feeling ashamed to make a mistake in front of the whole class.

The charity for them is a great chance to get English classes for a very reasonable price on a very good level. This is all they learn here. English. The most basic education you can get to survive in an ongoing evolving world. It´s really necessary to empower them, so they get at least this.

They all are either refugees or children born here of former Tibetan refugees.

My other monk friend Pedme from Buthan, is teaching me Tibetan in return which is quite hard, but beautiful. I do my best not to suck too much....

The Charity also has a nursing sector where Tibetan girls can get a profession as a nurse. Mostly paid by western donors who sponsor their career. They know about Tibetan medicine, traditional massages and cures. The girls are so warmhearted and cute you can not imagine. Tibetans in general have not lost their soul. They are all warmhearted, have a beautiful sense of humor and are never superficial nor selfish. They have not lost the human values which I can´t find in the west very often. 

Being kind, loving, generous, warmhearted and compassionate in the west often times, is being misunderstood as flirtation or even worst misinterpreted as a sign of weakness , because it has become so rare. Here it´s the way to be and live with each other.

The rain is still very hard. every day for hours and hours. I got used to damp clothes and low hygienic standards. I went already through my first Foodpoising for 48 hours with fever, hospital and all that,  a week ago. Nothing can shock me anymore. One step closer to enlightenment. Foodposining is cleaning the body from toxins. 

These two beautiful beings are one of the most precious gifts on this journey. Magda and Tenzin. Tenzin was the first one to teach us Tibetan and we are still trying to... We are a beautiful team. I am very grateful that we met again in this life time to spend this time together. Tenzin is just Tenzin. There is no other. Magda and I are constantly cracking up. The way he speaks, what he speaks, just everything about him is unique. He is really the embodiment of a buddhist. Always there for others, has the biggest heart ever for everybody, caring, warmhearted and lighthearted, funny. Magda became like a sister to me. We share similar stories and get along so well with one another, that I feel constantly blessed. The other day we went to a Yoga class. A sort of Indian Yoga Guru, teaching a weird class, which wasn´t in a nice flow like I know from my Jivamukti practice. This was almost a bit like in the army. "RELAX! BREATHE DEEP! STRECH!" No music, no spiritual talk, damp old mats in a dark damp basement. Only hippie westerners who come here to find themselves, eat Indian food and shop souvenirs. We experienced it, but realized that this is not for us...

Maybe another Yoga basement, but maybe not. I have realized that I am so spoiled from my Jivamukti practice, studio and method, that I guess it´s gonna get hard for me to find something that can keep up with that...I know, what a huge paradox that is, being in India and thinking about the Yoga studio in Berlin...

Namaste<3

I´m a Buddhist bird now

Every second shop here. Prayer breeds, Buddha statues, Mandalas. All that I´ve been drawing and collecting since my childhood now becomes alive here and is put into action. Local people here all have prayer breeds and you see them recite all day

Cows, Dogs, Monkeys and cows. They are just standing on the street, lying on it and not giving a damn about anything. Trash, feces, food, people everything is lying next to each other on the street...incredible if you haven´t experienced it. You can´t actually, if you never have been out of a western country, don´t bother to try. It´s that and ten times more then you think...

At the Vipassana Center in Dharamkot. I would love to do Vipassana here...hope I´ll have time for it. 10 days in complete silence. Meditation from 5 o´clock in the morning until 9pm.  Simple food and no words. For me this sounds like heaven

Our room...misty, damp beds, nothing dries...We just laugh about it. What else can we do! I´m very grateful Magda and I have found each other. I guess it would have been for both of us pretty tough to do this completely on our own, in separate rooms. Since everything here is a hard experience, it´s nice to share and laugh about all this. India is not as luxury or comfortable as Thailand or even Indonesia and this is great! Everything is it´s own experience

One View over upper Dharamsala. You have lower & upper Dharamsala. Just like Manhatten, Upper East side or so...almost...Here they have goats walking on the streets. In New York they have Italians...

Free Tibet

Welcome to Dharamsala! I am teaching here english for tibetan refugees.
Its the middle of the rainy season and when I say rainy season, I really mean it!
Not like the "one-hour-its-still-hot" thailand or Indonesia rainy season. This is serious.
It rains all day, our clothes don´t dry, in the room its humid, its misty all day. But you know what, I still singing my "Om mani padme Om" under my umbrella when I walk to school, because that rain is not going to stop me to do this wonderful job here, for these wonderful people.
Here is Kalden and Magda also teachers here. Kalden is tibetan and Magda comes from the US. We were in Dehli and we spend most of the time together. Without Kalden, I don´t know if we would be still here. He makes sure we feel save, loved and got everything we need. Kalden, you rock!

Palsang is a tibetan monk who came here two weeks ago. together we do conversation, he teaches me tibetan and we pray for a free Tibet. Yesterday we walked into the mountains quite a bit and he taught me some tibetan. Tashi delek, good luck!

This is Upper Dharamsala. Lovely chaos, vivid and dirty. the rawest and wildest expression of life.
People here have so little and make the most out of it. I wish that western people would develop this attitude more and stop complaining when they sit in their big cars, drive on clean roads, have a full fridge in a nice, warm house...Simplicity is key

Happiness comes from the inside and is not attained by outer things, neither material nor other desires. 

We can attain a lasting state of happiness by helping, serving for others. whether it´s for our friends or people in need. Do something for others, what has nothing to do with your own personal desires. There are more important things to do on earth then becoming a popstar or a rich businessman. If you are one, you should use your power to help others

There are many regions in this world which need our help. Tibet is one of them.

Get involved, wherever, be creative, do it

Addictions, our hunchbacked friends

In Life everybody is conciously or unconciously looking for an "AHA" Moment,  a spiritual moment. A deep realization, a conclusion what brings a feeling of connection to something greater.

This greater force what holds everything together. some like to call this "God". I prefer to say the universe or the source, where we all come from. 
This source, this God, the entire Universe and so this connection, is within us. It is us.
We tend to seek this connection outside through different experiences such as taking drugs for example. 
Any kind of drugs. 
Humans tend to addictive behaviors. Everything can turn into a drug.
Alcohol, chemical things, natural drugs, sex, food, everything that alters our consciousness, love, partying, shopping, money, excitement, spirituality. 
In fact, everything that gives us a moment of "unnormality", "magic"...

The most known practices besides drugs to alter your consciousness, are obviously spiritual practices such as Yoga, meditation, prayer, Tai-chi, chanting etc.

Any form of addictive behavior hinders you from growth.

By realizing and facing why one is taking drugs, or pursuing addictive behaviors, one comes into the power of changing these old self-destructive patterns.
Every extreme is addictive. 
Tending to the positive or negative.
Many spiritual people saw through their own addictive behavior and turned their addictive patterns into spirituality...at least now your existence is serving a higher purpose... 

There is something self-destructive in over-eating, shopping, the need for excitement, sex or the need for recognition of others, the need to be right, need for information, need to be better etc. 
Needs in general.
We all have addictive behaviour.
Its like a virus which unbalances the human nature.
If we would be free of all this I guess, we finally would bee in Nirvana, free from desires, flaws and negative energies that weigh us down.

Since earth is a huge School and we are all doing our earth exam, we actually have three Jobs. 
Appreciate, transcend and improve the self and the world.
The gold standard for human maturity is to realize that these three jobs reinforce each other.

A society with a System that enslaves People and weakens them, feeding them with fear, intends to control People and destroy the inner child of everybody. They love addicted people, because they are easy to manipulate.

Nature is always expanding, evolving, becoming a newer version of itself. 
We are nature too,  our Body, our cells, our Spirit, intellect, emotions, everything wants continuesly to grow, evolve and expand too. 
Transcending the old from dark into light. 
From negative into positive and the other way round. Nature seeks balance.

Life is actually physics, chemics and methaphysics put into a pot, called "mysticism", heated up, stired peacefully, put in huge Portion of unconditional love and when temperature is right, its ready to eat; ready to live!

It´s about maturing but never growing up. 
Realizing, overcoming and balancing out our addictions. which make us weak for manipulation.
Keeping your inner child alive and reinforcing it. Playing without harming.
Being vulnerable, having a sense of wonder.
Living in the moment, in simplicity, ease and grace. 
Taking responsability for everything. Your thoughts & actions.
We all create in the very moment of the now, our future. 
What you think now, is what will happen to you in the next moment, in the next days and from there on.

Take back your power, realize your addictions and drop them. Just like that.
We don´t need so much. In all respects.
Get lighter in order to become more.
Not everybody has to love you. 
Be happy for other peoples success. This will set you free.

We don´t need all these new clothes, new phones, new material items, new relationships etc
As long as you hold on and protect your self created structures, you enable yourself to grow. 
You work against your true nature which constantly wants to expand.
This is caused to certain hormones which are being released.
Either you release a "protect" hormone or you release a "growth" hormone.

I am going to India, in order to grow more into myself.
People say: "because you want to find yourself".
I believe, this search is never ending. Its a becoming, not a finding.
While people keep on trying to define me,
I will leave and experience the vastness of my imperfect self in this very imperfect moment, during monsoon time in India.
Brilliant. 
I love doing things that bring me out of comfort zones
So Bye. I love you and always will. 
Thank you

Diamonds are built under pressure

There was once a beautiful girl from far away
When I first met her I felt her magic and was awed
The more I got to know her, the more I saw myself in her...

There were similar themes we were confronted with, along our own life path, yet we were so different
I felt an underlying connection, an underlying understanding...

This girl, who is now a woman,
let her light shine so brightly, that I felt permitted to do the same

This girl, who is now a woman,
was sending out so much strength and grace, that I had no other choice to be strong and take every lesson in my life with grace

This unique being taught me through her example,
to stay in truth, radiating her own wisdom in such a confident way, that I had no other choice to act on my greatness and my truth, in confidence

This girl, who is now a woman,
has helped me through her presence and living example, how to be a woman myself, full of truthful bliss, spreading wisdom like medicine....

Thank you for making me realizing god in me and that I am worth more than I ever could have imagined
I love you very much for all that you´ve shared with me and the world
You have a special place in my heart
Keep shining

sincerely,
your star-sign-mirror

For a Tempel Goddess

Thank you for bringing me back to mother earth
Showing me through your example, the beautiful power of being grounded

Thank you for reminding me of taking always care for myself first, in order to help others
Showing me the way into my inner holy temple

Thank you for being perfectly unperfect, messy and wildly chaotic
Showing me how to to accept and love people and circumstances just the way they are

Thank you for giving your time and loving energy
Showing me how to create the magic of flying and help others to unfold their wings, too

I love you very much
Always take good care of yourself and your precious temple

This is for a person who helped me, to change myself. So I could change my life

Only a few people see greatness in you, when you can´t see it in yourself anymore...

Only a few people are willing to help you selflessly to find 
and develope that inner light in you, which has been buried over too long time...

Only a few people know how to feel the struggles you are in, 
and are willing to share from their power, so you will learn to fly again...

Only a few people will light the way, when the night is darkest, when the deepest revelations of your own soul tries to eat you alive, when you are facing the devil...

Only a few know how to guide you, so you can develope your own mastery in overcoming. 
They let you find your own inner healer, master, guru, your abundance; by silent guidance...

Only a few are able to teach you, when they are not around, by the simple, inner dialogue with them. 
They remember you about your true, silent confidence which leads your way in sincere self love.
When you remember that you don´t need anyone nor anything to be truly happy...

Only a few have so much compassion and love for your healing, that I´m crying when I´m writing this...

Only a few have understood their higher call and what is going on in the world and follow that path of salvation, 
no matter how hard it is, 
no matter how much they have to sacrifice of their individual fulfilment...

Only a few....

... I am divinely blessed to learn from one of them...

Since I am learning from that special person, my deepest wish has transformed through these deep teachings and became detached from the earthly desires I had. Realizing my personal desires became senseless, if I wouldnt put them into service for humanities healing, growth and development.
My biggest wish in my life is and will always be;

That, other people heal from egoic possessions and free their inner child again and wake up to their truth.
That, other people find their key to everlasting happiness and 
their own greatness inside of them, too. 

Regardless of outer circumstances, regardless of their past, presence, social structures and even identifications of who they are and what they do for a living. 
My wish is, that people could detach more from the current social systems to realize what is going on and will go on...
That they will find their inner happiness, which is not related to anything in the outside world.
No "great job" no fame, no other person.

That, other people find the ability to love freely, openly and sincerely with all their heart. 
Unconditionally.

I wish, that people love themselve in a non-selfpraising, snotty way, but in a silent, mature, graceful way and see this love; this divine greatness in others too and start helping each other to achieve this.

That, people appreciate earth, their precious life and use their power to create something meaningful, instead of waisting it in a society, based on short lasting Fun experiences.

Something, that helps people in their personal growth, to realize how they can make this world a better place with every thought, meaningful actions coming from a place of Love.

Something, new forms of life, which reconnect us to nature, to one another, which creates a constant feeling of deep fulfilling happiness, detached from every outer thing. 
Something, people develope compassion through,  unconditional love and bring back the values our society has lost along the way.

I continue being a part of lighting these realizations up in others, by my simple presence, voice and other creative expressions along my journey. If only one person gets what I am saying, then my life has been successful already.

People fail all the time in everything. Only when they´ve come to realize and put into practice helping others in succeeding; their own failure will disappear and they´ll succeed too...

You make a difference

Why do you love the cat and pet it and why do you allow cruelty to the pig, through the decision you make, when you are in the supermarket?

I´m a vegetarian since childhood but ate chicken& fish again for a little while, to realize that it´s no good in every co-relation.
Almost a year ago I turned into vegan. It´s not hard. Only if you believe its hard it will be. Get over and on with it.
Although I must admit I loved fish, after several books and everything that I found out about the mass industry we live in, continuing eating meat would have been like denying the holocaust.
I´ve written a former post on veganism and why for me, there is no more discussion on this subject and everybody trying to find excuses is just not well enough informed and finding excuses.
The system is sick and we are the ones who can change this by our choices.

Now, I even would say, that if you want to live a healthy life, the future is being a Raw vegan.
Even Soy products are only healthy to a limited amount. We are nature, we are living beings so we should  put living food in our bodies not dead, cooked stuff.

Open your eyes to the cruel system which is insane. Millions of Pigs, Cows and Chickens are being slaughtered in the most cruel way you can imagine, you are just not looking at it. 
By not acting in your food choices, you are allowing it to be a part of your society.
Besides of all the health issues, which are caused by eating meat, (it´s proven, if you still need all the scientific researches), meat eaters are more anxious, depressed, fearful etc.

So be mature and realize, that you have the choice to be aware about what is going on and looking away is actually saying "Yes" to the mass slaughter and mass milking of ill, terribly treated cows. 
No excuses. No jokes about it. I don´t care where you studied. If you don´t understand this, you did not understand real compassion.

The most common excuse heard by meat eaters is: "Where do you get your protein?"

Ok guys, do me one favor, please ask a Gorilla where he gets his proteins from....
...Or a Cow, or a Brontosaurus....

This is not to punish you, but to make you realize your power on changing things, by deciding today whether you act on something you deeply know inside and feels truthful, or you continue acting unaware just because it´s "easier"...Create new ways of being!
In order to help the planet recover, we must help to limit the pollution caused by the mass slaughter and everything that comes with this subject.
A Cow would never eat you...it´s vegan...get it?!

Be here now

The choice to go the path of truth, is not necessarily the easiest nor the funniest.
It´s not a family trip nor a party in your sense.

It´s the uncovering of all falsehood, a stripping off, of all the layers of illusions, attachments, dependencies, identifications, comforts and everything that hold you back from growing, expanding in love.

You have to be willing to let go of everything you know, you think you are, you were, you ever could be in order to walk this path. 
Do or not do, there is no try.

It´s the complete exposure of all weaknesses, sufferings, pains, disguise but the complete opener to true joy, love happiness and inner peace, you´ve never experienced. Eternally

To reach Paradise, you will climb rocks and walk on bumpy roads, in uncertainty, by the only transportation available- your faith.
You will loose, many "friends", probably your job, your life circumstances. Everything will be taken away from you.
Many times,
you will feel you loose what you´ve called yourself.
Your ability to function in this world in the same way as you always did, will diminish.
Things on that path work on another level which you have no control over.
People will appear, disappear, you will be guided to do or not do the things that arise in front of you. Everything seems magically taken care of and it is.

It´ll make no sense anymore. Nothing...
Let it all go. 
Let it happen to you. Surrender in nothingness. 
You strip of illusions, which limited you from being the real you. 
Your essence 

You will love spending time in silent solitude, because only then you can really listen and hear.
You will seem awkward, even suspicious for the most people.
You just don´t fit in anymore, anywhere and you actually don´t care anymore about it.

You will feel the struggles of the people, hear their worries without them speaking to you, 
you will be overwhelmed by all that you can feel without being next to someone.
You will want to help, support and give everything you have to people you see suffering and struggling in illusion and pain, cause you just know what it feels like...

Out of nothing,
everything will start to make sense, magically  fall into place, you will read signs, syncronicities increase

Suddenly, 
you feel the greatest Love you ever felt in your life. It´s a love you have never felt before. You meet yourself

one day,
you find yourself laughing on your own, for no reason and crying tears of joy. You will dance, laugh

then,
you feel light, calm and somehow redeemed. Free. Peaceful for no outer reason, no distractions. LOVE; JOY!!!

Then you realize, this is it
This is the true essence of me
The path of my truth
You know, you see, you realize, you feel 
You are everything and nothing. 
The flower, the air, the bird and all the invisible particles that have ever existed and will ever exist

You feel you have changed the world, because you have changed yourself

You realize that the people, circumstances, everything you are supposed to do in this life, will  just come to you without you doing anything. 

Just by being. 
Existing. 
Living in your abundance of Love and Joy, living what´s coming next through simplicity.
Then you will forget everything again, to arrive....

...in the now

... that´s the point where the real journey begins....